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Saturday, September 18, 2004

It is impossible to properly put down in words exactly what comes over the moment you realize that everything familiar has suddenly become uncomfortable. Most everything that used to be so alluring about college has crumbled around me as I am left with only a few good friends have completely grown out of the crowded party/bar scene. My tolerance for meeting people and large group settings has long since disappeared. I wish it wasn't so, but I am apt to disappear any time anyone I don't know comes around. In truth I've come to despise all the things that outwardly characterize my fraternity and only enjoy it for the in between times.

The phrase "the world has turned and left me here" comes to mind, but it doesn't quite fit. Rather, I have turned and left the world behind (or at least the world I I know).